Today in class with Alhazar, we looked for an emotion and we danced with it. I danced with the fear in my guts. Fear of passing a threshold, fear of taking risks, fear of being out of my comfort zone, fear of winning the day, fear of being happy… because at the end we are only afraid of what we don’t know, an unpleasant situation can turn into a comfort zone because of habits and what is outside the zone scares you.
Dancing with fears was a revealing situation. Fear is exhausting, we do not realize because we are used to hiding it, to pretend not to feel it. We don’t allow our bodies to live it with itensity, we believe it is not here … but the fear is here. And when you let it go, when you allow yourself to feel it, when it grows in your whole body, you feel your legs ready to run away for ever, you feel exhausted, tired, disarranged, sweaty, with the heart ready to explode out of your chest, you feel dead and finally it ends.
Recognizing fear, intensifying it, dancing it and letting it go. When the fear tires itself, we can only watch it go, just like sand in your palm, you can’t keep it in even if you close your hand. Drop it, give it up, let it go. Get rid of what you don’t need.
Thanks Alhazar, it was brutal, I love your classes.
Marina Castells, student.